Hello everyone. Today i have to share nothing of value. Just some brooding 😁
First of all, i have a new artbook ! The incredible artbook about Schmoe's Little People, "Beneath the Leafs". I buy almost everything Schmoe publish or do, so this was a no brainer. The print and gadgets are super cute, the book is high quality and the artworks top knotch, many of which were never shared before. It's a true feast for the eyes, and the wait was well worth. So, why i'm brooding over it ? Well, because when i'm enjoying an artbook, i receive greeting from an old friend: Comparison.

They say comparison is the thief of joy, and that's true. But i feel is more like an anchor dragging you down. Whatever level of skill you could achieved, Comparison is there, reminding you're not at the same level of "that person you're looking for". You take an hard look of your work, look the work of "that person", then look again at yours, and realize how much farter they are. How much higher. How much... better then you.
It's a crushing feeling, realizing how much road i have yet to do before reaching the skill level i aim for. It's an unending road, and like everything infinite-looking, it's heavy. Worse of that, i feel jealous. But not because they have something i don't have. I never been jealous about not having something. No, what i'm jealous of, is the fact i probably will never do the same things.

I've started drawing like 6 or 7 years ago by now. Back then i was already in the job world, working full time. As time go on, my responsibilities keeps growing, and the time to draw has always been little. I can't draw that much, and proper practice is scarce. Someone in such a weak position cannot honestly compare to people who started drawing when they were kids and never stopped, maybe even had academic degrees, this i know. And i have to force myself to remind that. But still, Comparison and jealousy are there, constantly screaming : "what you draw will never be that good, you cannot reach them. You're too late, and don't run fast enough".

I've actually started to write the first part of this post a week ago (work still keep getting in the way of the things i like to do, dammit) and for a good half i've been in a depressed mood. But i have to give credit to myself sometimes: even in my lowest, i didn't let go the pencil once in this time. I recognize this dangerous mood: is the one who let you give up. Is espectially strong at the first month of drawing (or anything difficoult enough in truth), but sometimes it gets back, checking how you doing. But yet again, my discipline was there, covering my back. Thanks pal.

I walk slowly, but i don't give up.

Ehi-oh guys ! It’s been a while since I last wrote here. Work has been pretty busy lately, and I haven't had much time to work on the site. That said, the time I do have is better spent actually drawing, but I've still managed to put a few things together.
If you look in the upper-right corner, you'll see that the NSFW area is now open! There's still not much to see yet, but it's there for you. It does require registration, just to avoid having explicit content out in the open: it's a simple username/password login. I didn't had time to implement a mail server, so if you forget your username or password, it's basically gone. But since nothing important is tied to the account yet, feel free to create as many accounts as you like. No issues! X)
Porn aside, I've added some more recent works to the gallery for you to check out, and I'm also working on a new comic! This one is done traditionally and is a bit longer than usual (roughly the length of a standard manga chapter). Making comics is time-consuming and demanding, especially when you're working alone and still learning, but I'm having a great time picking up so many new things. It'll still take quite a while, but next time I'll share some pictures.
Since it feels bad to leave you like this, i can show you this other WiP: in the little scraps of time I have, i'm drawing this fanart of Endfield's Tangtang based on an old meme. See you soon !